Hi there. My name is Vesper, I am currently a first year student studying bachelor of computing and statistics. It has been six years since I moved to Australia from China. I come from a very typical Asian family, this means my parents values education but not really anything else. They are not ‘strict’ per say, but I was still sent to an catholic girl school even though my parents believe in Buddhism. Over the years I always feel uneasy to talk about my desires and fetishes, on the one hand I am sort of ashamed of what I want, I used to fake that I don’t know anything about sex to my boyfriends let along my kinks, one the other hand I am scared to try and to want what I want because both of the education I received in school and from my family. Therefore, my fantasies remained to be fantasies over the years and I don’t have any other experience besides my experience with myself. Besides this sort of gloomy backstory, I a m/switch (meaning I do have some dominatrix fantasies…but in general I like being submissive). I enjoy role-play and bondage play. Hope to meet you and have fun with you!
I feel really strange talking about my BDSM experience to be honest since I don’t really have any, at least not with another person. In fact, besides fooling around, I don’t have any experience regarding penetrated sex. Unfortunately this is not due to the fact that I was thrown into a girlschool, but rather a sense of shame and reluctance to talk about what I like, what I really like and how I like things to be done. After all, I definitely lied to my middle school boyfriend that I didn’t know what masturbation was, the same way that I lied about how his kiss skill and me not being a bisexual. The truth is, the real truth is, I fantasized about being tied up and rubbing myself against my pillow since I was in year 3; I was fooling around not only with my exes, but also with my cousins and we practiced tying each other up, spanking and face-sitting (these activities stopped when we grow up of course); I bought my first vibrator at year 7, the same time I was with my last boyfriend(Oops). I don’t want to say I am horny (which of course like every other 19-year-olds, I am). Instead, I want to describe myself as unsatiated, unsatiated with my curiosity beyond what was perceived as “normal”. I want to be role-played, tied up, bondaged, spanked, double-penetrated, humiliated, not only because this is always what I wanted to do, I want to also express and explore the true and real sides of me. I feel like I have gone off to an overly sentimental track here, I guess in a simpler way, to sum all my repressed emotions and desire, it’s that: I have been a very bad girl, please punish me daddy!
