My name is Annie, and I’m originally from Shanghai China, but I’m currently studying at university in New York City. Since I was a child, my parents have kept a close watch on me, bound by religious beliefs and family restrictions that have often prevented me from pursuing what I love or expressing my true self. They were frequently busy with work and couldn’t spend much time with me, so my needs as a child were often overlooked. It was during those years that I began to realize how much I longed for someone who would truly care about my well-being, both physically and emotionally. I imagined meeting a kind, considerate, and warm-hearted partner in real life—someone with whom I could share happiness and emotional richness.
Later on, I came to the U.S. for high school, studying in Los Angeles. It was a chance for me to escape my parents’ direct control. Unfortunately, they insisted I attend a church-affiliated girls’ school, where the rules made me uncomfortable. I had to be monitored daily by a relative who acted as my guardian, which meant I couldn’t date or rebel in any way as a minor. The conflicts between my beliefs and those enforced at the school made me feel out of place. After four years of feeling tormented, I was determined to escape upon graduation, and that’s why I chose to move to New York for college.
I was accepted into the Illustration program at Parsons. While life here is more expensive, it’s also richer in art, with my favorite Broadway shows and art museums just around the corner. The city’s convenience and the fact that I can finally start fresh, far from everyone I knew, are what make me truly enjoy my life here. I love the campus atmosphere and hope to stay in this beautiful city for a long time. My parents are unpredictable when it comes to financial support, especially after arguments, so I’ve had to rely on myself. If I don’t comply with their wishes, I’m left to earn my own pocket money by drawing for others online, covering my daily expenses and saving up for the future to ensure I can live independently—or perhaps share my life with someone I love. I crave care and affection. I want someone who truly cherishes and protects me, someone who makes me feel safe and gives me the desire to spend my life with them, healing the wounds of my childhood and looking forward to the future with optimism. I find myself drawn to the idea of being controlled and dominated, fantasizing about being fulfilled and needed as a pet. In the realm of SM, I can be humiliated and punished, and I would do my best to meet any requests that I can accept, knowing that when the game ends, there’s someone willing to comfort, accept, and listen to me. That’s what I need the most—to be valued.
But due to the common beliefs of Asian countries, I am still a little shy about real sex…
I’ve never been in a romantic relationship, and during college, I’ve only spent time with female friends. That’s why I want to save my first time for someone truly important, someone I can trust with my future. I hope he will genuinely like and cherish me.
